just a lonely guy...a drummer

2003-09-27T07:58:00.000-07:00

ok pps....im gona live my life n mooooovveee... ooonn....
im gona live my life too the fullest.....
n let the girls come to me...yeah right.....
well i juz hope i find sum 1 ....
ill never forget u.......i promise
well im movin on folks...
guys gd nite
girls gd mornin...haha
well...im movin on....wish me luck...girls im availible hahah ......sory...

2003-09-23T17:53:00.000-07:00

well luv is a such a wonderful thing to feel...
haha i guess im feelin tht right now..but i kinda burns...
dont u just want somebody to love n hold...haha well its somthin we all wish we felt...i guess...
i noe i love sombody...
always the other question is do they love you?
well thts something tht bites...
how ever u may feel like givin up...dunt because ur chance might come..
buts dont always wait...
maybe in 10 yrs time ull be famous n be cuter or prettier...n theyll come runnin to you...
well we just hope!///
i guess ive been thinking about love for too long...n it never seems they way u think itd seem...
u call love sombody ur whole life but if they dont love u...i guess u gotta move on...u might find some 1 soo much better n shed be prettier..so dun giv ur whole life up for 1 person cuz u will definatly find some 1 in ur life...
but im just gona wait a little longer n then im done...shell al ways be in heart ....

2003-09-21T18:26:00.000-07:00

sorry guys dint mean to post it so many times...iarrh ...
yvonne i doubt ull see this but any way
im sorry...i think i phrased things the wrong way...i wasnt blaming u
plsss forgive me...

2003-09-20T08:57:00.001-07:00

Sat Sep 20, 08:43:50 AM | jonathan ong | edit ]
[ Sat Sep 20, 08:37:40 AM | jonathan ong | edit ]
its hard//.when u love some 1...n they dun luv u the way u want them to....it burns n cracks u..n u cant do anythin...u hope u find the remedy....n u listen to songs n sing along.....n cry...
i love u ....i just want to let u noe tht..because ive been waitin all this time...
ppl tell me to move on but i just close my ears...
i still luv u..n it hurts me.....
it burns me.....
...cuz i love u n i dun wana leave u.....
u remind me a butterflys...
u make me happy...
i luv u...

2003-09-20T08:57:00.000-07:00

2003-09-20T08:55:00.000-07:00

haha...tht id try it out looked kinda fun....well tday i was in da bus wiv the two stooges russ n indra...russ n me decided to buy a tub of hagen daz ice cream...tiramisu...mmmm yummy...n we acually fiished the whole thing in the bus...unitl russ decided to lob the whole tub at indra and noeing him ...deflected the bloody thing n it went splaaat on the buses floor..there was a moment of silence..we were just in hesterics..i was rolling around the bus floor..n i couldednt stop laughin n till i found out i had squished indras carton of aloevera apple juice on me.....well they did say it was gd for the skin..didnt hav to find out this way though......and another incident tht happed tdae with that bitch indra , when i was eatin my porridge..yes i eat porridge...my eye was dry...so i took out one bottle n i knew it was the contact lense cleaner but ididnt knoe it wasnt for use lyk the eye drops....so i asked indra..which i wish i didnt....can i use it for lubricating the lense in my eye,n he said"u put the lense in the solven of couse can use lah..."so me being trusting which i shouldent hav .....popped some in my eye....i then began screaming..n howling in pain..."my eye arrrrrhhh my eye...ahhh fuck fuck..aarrrhhhhh.....n evry 1 was lookin at me..mean while our dear friend indra decides to read the instuctiions while im in pain yelling "fuck my eye!"....n he says,,,oh..NOT INTENDED FOR USE DIRECTLY IN THE EYE....mean while im screamin my bollocks off bout my eye ball...n after i rinsed it...it finally went away...now i noe why the buggers got slits for eyes....must be his cleansing lotion...or wadeve the hell hes using...who the fuck noes?!haha

2003-09-20T08:48:00.000-07:00

2003-09-20T08:43:00.000-07:00

[ Sat Sep 20, 08:37:40 AM | jonathan ong | edit ]
its hard//.when u love some 1...n they dun luv u the way u want them to....it burns n cracks u..n u cant do anythin...u hope u find the remedy....n u listen to songs n sing along.....n cry...
i love u ....i just want to let u noe tht..because ive been waitin all this time...
ppl tell me to move on but i just close my ears...
i still luv u..n it hurts me.....
it burns me.....
...cuz i love u n i dun wana leave u.....
u remind me a butterflys...
u make me happy...
i luv u...

2003-09-20T08:41:00.000-07:00

2003-09-20T08:37:00.000-07:00

its hard//.when u love some 1...n they dun luv u the way u want them to....it burns n cracks u..n u cant do anythin...u hope u find the remedy....n u listen to songs n sing along.....n cry...
i love u ....i just want to let u noe tht..because ive been waitin all this time...
ppl tell me to move on but i just close my ears...
i still luv u..n it hurts me.....
it burns me.....
...cuz i love u n i dun wana leave u.....
u remind me a butterflys...
u make me happy...
i luv u...

2003-09-19T06:22:00.000-07:00

2003-09-19T06:17:00.000-07:00

[ Fri Sep 19, 06:09:04 AM | jonathan ong | edit ]
its hard letting some 1 go...but im not gona do tht....cause i love her....well its hard when u meet the person u luv n u just think to urself..oh god its her...shes so pretty shes so kind cute n funny..n shes got so many things in common...oh no i dun wana say the wrong thing n hurt her..n when she smiles u smile n ur heart melts....n u just dream of being with that person...n then u wake up...the dream fades...it fickles n u wonder to urself will i ever get her...i want to be with her..n u just sit there..in an empty room..crying...listening to songs bout a girls..n love...n u sing along hoping to ease the pain..n u wish u could find a gd band n play the songs n sing them out to let all the pain all the love out...but u cant so u just bear with it everyday lookin at her..n dreamin...n hoping one day u will be with her...n u noe when tht day comes ull be so happy...n other days u look at pics of other pretty girls in the usa canada...n u think to urself there r soo many other girls out there is she really worth it waiting around?..n then immediatrly u say yes...n the tht fades...because u noe ur heart will always love her...n it still hurts not being with her...n then u still wait n wait...n theres a point u try to move on cause it is not gettin u any where...n then u hear a song on the radio...n a tear dops...n her face comes into ur mind..n then u just break down.....well i just wanted to let it out some where.....cuz i luv her...
[ DRAFT | Created: Fri Sep 19, 05:49:55 AM | jonathan ong | edit ]
haha...tht id try it out looked kinda fun....well tday i was in da bus wiv the two stooges russ n indra...russ n me decided to buy a tub of hagen daz ice cream...tiramisu...mmmm yummy...n we acually fiished the whole thing in the bus...unitl russ decided to lob the whole tub at indra and noeing him ...deflected the bloody thing n it went splaaat on the buses floor..there was a moment of silence..we were just in hesterics..i was rolling around the bus floor..n i couldednt stop laughin n till i found out i had squished indras carton of aloevera apple juice on me.....well they did say it was gd for the skin..didnt hav to find out this way though......and another incident tht happed tdae with that bitch indra , when i was eatin my porridge..yes i eat porridge...my eye was dry...so i took out one bottle n i knew it was the contact lense cleaner but ididnt knoe it wasnt for use lyk the eye drops....so i asked indra..which i wish i didnt....can i use it for lubricating the lense in my eye,n he said"u put the lense in the solven of couse can use lah..."so me being trusting which i shouldent hav .....popped some in my eye....i then began screaming..n howling in pain..."my eye arrrrrhhh my eye...ahhh fuck fuck..aarrrhhhhh.....n evry 1 was lookin at me..mean while our dear friend indra decides to read the instuctiions while im in pain yelling "fuck my eye!"....n he says,,,oh..NOT INTENDED FOR USE DIRECTLY IN THE EYE....mean while im screamin my bollocks off bout my eye ball...n after i rinsed it...it finally went away...now i noe why the buggers got slits for eyes....must be his cleansing lotion...or wadeve the hell hes using...who the fuck noes?!haha

2003-09-19T06:09:00.000-07:00

its hard letting some 1 go...but im not gona do tht....cause i love her....well its hard when u meet the person u luv n u just think to urself..oh god its her...shes so pretty shes so kind cute n funny..n shes got so many things in common...oh no i dun wana say the wrong thing n hurt her..n when she smiles u smile n ur heart melts....n u just dream of being with that person...n then u wake up...the dream fades...it fickles n u wonder to urself will i ever get her...i want to be with her..n u just sit there..in an empty room..crying...listening to songs bout a girls..n love...n u sing along hoping to ease the pain..n u wish u could find a gd band n play the songs n sing them out to let all the pain all the love out...but u cant so u just bear with it everyday lookin at her..n dreamin...n hoping one day u will be with her...n u noe when tht day comes ull be so happy...n other days u look at pics of other pretty girls in the usa canada...n u think to urself there r soo many other girls out there is she really worth it waiting around?..n then immediatrly u say yes...n the tht fades...because u noe ur heart will always love her...n it still hurts not being with her...n then u still wait n wait...n theres a point u try to move on cause it is not gettin u any where...n then u hear a song on the radio...n a tear dops...n her face comes into ur mind..n then u just break down.....well i just wanted to let it out some where.....cuz i luv her...

2003-09-19T05:27:00.000-07:00

DRAFT | Created: Fri Sep 19, 05:49:55 AM | jonathan ong | edit ]
haha...tht id try it out looked kinda fun....well tday i was in da bus wiv the two stooges russ n indra...russ n me decided to buy a tub of hagen daz ice cream...tiramisu...mmmm yummy...n we acually fiished the whole thing in the bus...unitl russ decided to lob the whole tub at indra and noeing him ...deflected the bloody thing n it went splaaat on the buses floor..there was a moment of silence..we were just in hesterics..i was rolling around the bus floor..n i couldednt stop laughin n till i found out i had squished indras carton of aloevera apple juice on me.....well they did say it was gd for the skin..didnt hav to find out this way though......and another incident tht happed tdae with that bitch indra , when i was eatin my porridge..yes i eat porridge...my eye was dry...so i took out one bottle n i knew it was the contact lense cleaner but ididnt knoe it wasnt for use lyk the eye drops....so i asked indra..which i wish i didnt....can i use it for lubricating the lense in my eye,n he said"u put the lense in the solven of couse can use lah..."so me being trusting which i shouldent hav .....popped some in my eye....i then began screaming..n howling in pain..."my eye arrrrrhhh my eye...ahhh fuck fuck..aarrrhhhhh.....n evry 1 was lookin at me..mean while our dear friend indra decides to read the instuctiions while im in pain yelling "fuck my eye!"....n he says,,,oh..NOT INTENDED FOR USE DIRECTLY IN THE EYE....mean while im screamin my bollocks off bout my eye ball...n after i rinsed it...it finally went away...now i noe why the buggers got slits for eyes....must be his cleansing lotion...or wadeve the hell hes using...who the fuck noes?!haha